Happy Happy Joy Joy!!!

Hola Friends! I'm so stinkin excited. The scale loved me this morning. - I'M DOWN ANOTHER 2#!!!!! WAHOO!!!

I was thinking about the Ren and Stimpy Show and the Happy Happy Joy Joy Dance :)

Remember that?! :) LOL  note quality is bad b/c I'm so old and these were what cartoons looked like when I was younger.  hahahahahahaha

It is a rainy, yucky Friday but I'm feeling really good :) Plus it will rain this weekend and that means we get to clean my house!!! The first floor and basement were done last weekend. This weekend it is the upstairs!!! BEDROOMS AND BATHROOMS! All hands on deck. Also this weekend I am getting my hair colored and cut and have an adult night out at McGooby’s (comedy club) with friends…pretty psyched!

Funny kid story :) This week Dominic got 100% on a very difficult math test and I told him we should celebrate. He took it upon himself to call and set something up himself. Tonight we are apparently having pizza and milkshakes with Mom Mom and Poppy :) He is too funny…Note: I’m buying pizza for the kids/others and making myself a whole wheat crust, (FF) ricotta, green pepper, mushroom and onion pizza. I’ll take a picture, I promise. In lieu of a milkshake, I’ll make a green monster!!

 I’m also planning to hit the gym later tonight when everyone is settled and Livie Lou is in bed.

More later…
TTFN
(222.5)

Wadja eat?

Food today consisted of English muffin w veggie sausage

Spinach dip and carrots 

Lunch was a salad that had some feta chesse and veggies and Maryland crab soup.  Was delicious but didn'take a pic :/. Note sushi lunch got canceled...

Had an apple and pear for snacks then went to aerobics!  It was so great and best of all???  My sis will be joining me starting next week!  YAY!  

This is my after workout pic...not too bad but the workout was really good!

Came home and made sweet potato hash and had more veggies and spinach dip

Now hanging w the hubby...great day!

TTFN

#photofoodjournal

The Photo food journal doesn't work without photos!!!! DAMN...I keep forgetting :/

NEW YEAR...New April! (sounds cliche)

HAPPY NEW YEAR Friends!!!

I need an outlet for all I’ve been doing but I wanted to make sure I was really back on the bandwagon before I got back on here J  It’s been a week and I’m itching to talk about my success so here goes…

Please Lord let this continue…

Let’s go back in time to the Holidays

I got really depressed (about my body) around the holidays (everything else was wonderful).  I have gained so much weight over the last year I’m not sure what I was thinking.  All the things I knew better then to do: eating a lot…of bad food…late at night AND not exercising!!  Come on April Floyd…  The depression was causing me to resort to negative self talk again and I really really don’t want my baby girl to have all the esteem issues I have.  I realized it was time to get started… 

I decided to be a stereotype and start on January 1^st.  On January 1^st I dramatically changed my eating and started C25k again.  I am feeling really good!!!  I haven’t missed a day of working out (I know I know…it has only been 8 days but still…I’ve been very dedicated).  I can feel my healthy taste buds coming back from all the clean eating and my will power seems to be at an all-time high J  YAY! 

Interesting tid bit about April?  My weight to size proportion has always been a  little crazy; I’m hoping this means I’m packed with Muscle but anybody who has seen me try to lift weights knows I’m a big wimp J  (note: my legs are crazy strong tho from all those years of dancing).  Ok back to the point…  I’ve always been less concerned about the actual number on the scale and more concerned with the change (preferably down) from week to week and the size clothes that I wear. 

All this is setting up my full disclosure.  It may embarrass some people to tell the entire internet what they weigh but I’ve got to disclose it so we I can be honest with myself and you on what my success is.  OK…before I do this I have to say how disgusted I am with myself.  I was 190# two years ago when I came to work here at Under Armour (I have a time stamped picture of my scale to prove it to myself).  How does one gain 40# when they go to work for an athletic apparel company?  UGG!!!  I know my feet issues and no kitchen during the fall have contributed to it but those are just excuses.  OK…that is enough beating myself up.  I started to improve and have already had results so I’ll get past the past and move on to the future J

Here are my stats for January 1^st:

Height: 5’5” (this obviously won’t change)

Weight: 230#

Jeans: 16R

Tops: XL (sometimes L)

UA Outerwear: NONE

UA Outerwear has been my nemesis lately.  They want us all to start wearing UA winter Gear on campus but the problem is that our fit is bad.  I can wear UA fleece and hoodies in an XL but the coats don’t even come close to zipping.  Try being a big person on a campus that is made of 23-27 year old athletes!!!  It is tough…I feel gargantuan on the regular.  This is not negative self talk…this is honestly!

CHECKIN: I did my first weigh in yesterday and am happy to report a 5.5# loss (224.5#).  YAY…there was definitely low hanging fruit but I’ll take it and it keeps me motivated.  Just a note I will add my weight to the bottom of my signature on each day I weigh in. 

FOOD: I’ll also start doing my photo food journal again J  but I just decided that now and didn’t get a picture of my breakfast sandwich…  It was a Fiber One English muffin and a Morning Star Veggie Sausage.  I’m meeting a friend today for lunch at a Sushi restaurant so that should be pretty easy and I made spinah dip for a snack today (spinach, greek yogurt, light ranch dressing and knorr seasoning packet) to have with carrots.  I’ll post pics tonight…  (no idea what dinner will be)

EXERCISE: Tonight I’m heading to my Aerobics class again.  I’m pretty psyched about it…  Some people say it is boring but I don’t care…I love it and it makes me sweat which is all that matters at the end of the day.  My metabolism is benefiting and that is all I care about.  I think I fell off the wagon last time because everything just got too hard.  I took the boot camp class and it was just too difficult and I felt weak.  I stopped running b/c 5ks made me feel like a loser for taking so long.  It is better for me to stay with basics and keep moving.  J 

So now you know what has been going on with me.  I am back to it and happy to be!!

TTFN

Choices

Every moment of every day and in everything we do we have a choice.  The key to success is making the RIGHT choices...This is what I'm struggling with recently.  I seem to be making MOSTLY good choices but when I make bad ones they are really bad.  

Here is what I'm talking about.

Lunch yesterday was from Jimmy John's and the pictures are rough b/c I was in a meeting and trying to take pictures without anyone noticing.  I had 3 small pieces of sub and they were veggie but the bad choice was...DID YOU REALLY NEED 3?  The bread at JJs is addictive...

I only had a few of the jalepeno chips...they were spicy and I did have a cookie.  I SHOULD have just done the chips b/c although the cookie was good it wasn't GREAT...

Dinner was a "good choice" salad with dressing on the side and I only dipped my fork and used very little but was preceded by spinach dip?!  See what I mean?>!?

Fun with my baby girl at the mall was the highlight :)  then she helped give mommy a pedi :)

Yes that is a binky and yes she is 3...she only gets it at night night time and she LOVES it :)

Today I had a seminar early now I'm working from home...  You can see the choices and although they are OK, they are not brilliant...

Mmmmm Chipotle and that is my amazing chobani at the top right LOVE THAT STUFF!

I'll figure out these choices.  IF I can make all good choices for a full week I know I will get my groove back.  I also need a kitchen (said the broken record)

more later

TTFN

Kitchen wonder...

Hi Friends :)

When I walked into my house last night I was astonished...

They put down all new sub floor and taped out my island...I'm so excited :)  Electrician (aka my BIL) will be there today and tomorrow...plumbing and drywall will happen next week along with the floors.  Then cabinets should be in the week of 23rd or 30th at the latest.  Once that is in they will mark the granite and that will be the final step before they finish the floors and voila - April FINALLY has a kitchen :)

Pretty sure my Dom has migraines so last night was tough... it is always the same.  He gets sluggish, I ask what is wrong and he says he has a headache.  Then within 30 minutes he pukes, goes to sleep and wakes up fine.  Last night he fell asleep at 6:30 and unfortunately that means he was in our room at 4am WIDE AWAKE!  UGG...I'm sleepy - HENCE my coffee :)

Who am I kidding?  I don't need an excuse to need coffee :)

Can I just tell you how amazing this Chobani is????

It is truly amazing.....If you can find it - BUY it and EAT it!!!  :)  #heaveninacup

My day will be interesting...I have meetings most of the day and lunch will be brought in; no idea what it will be.  

Note: I'm 100% aware that since I was up at 4am it would have been a perfect opportunity to get to the gym and I should have just gotten my A$$ out of bed but I didn't... BOO APRIL!!!

Time to get to it...

TTFN

Explanation of self loathing...

What is wrong with me?  Why can't I get back into this?  Why?!?!  I just want to flip a switch and be "healthy girl" again.  Instead I am eating like a monster and honestly...loathing myself for it.

Excuses...I'm 100% aware that Aunt Flow is about to rear her ugly head.  I have the zits and rage to prove it....  I think this is going to be a bad one and I'm just not making the best choices.  #nothappy

I think I'll have to go against doctor's orders and get back to the gym.  I may try to go early in the morning again...that worked last time.  Perhaps 5/530 am?  And once I have a kitchen I know my eating will get better...I'm craving healthier stuff, so that is good :)

I'll keep ya'll posted.

Regarding the weekend...even if I'm not happy with the way I look and eat...I am happy in general.  I had a GREAT weekend that included fire pit at my house, then soccer with the boys and  a girls night out Sat, closing out the weekend with the O's game on Sunday.  GREAT TIME!!!  Here are some pictures...

FOOD WAS HORRENDOUS!!!  and it continues :/

I'll keep this thing going even if it is a disaster...one day I'll snap out of it.  Hopefully before I weigh 1000#

TTFN